Sunday, September 24, 2006
chee, I'm a weirdo huh? Gosh. Anyway, I getting more cheerful than ever. Because I can return home early from now on. Why? Because I going to have my final year examinations and cca has been suspended. Nice huh? Okay, am I suppose to say nice when exams are coming? Hmm...whatever.I'm slackin', yeah, I'm. Hey, but I did wrote my notes for History. I found some time to practise today. Although I didn't practise finish the whole basic (because I watch tv half-way...), but I practised an hour or two. I got to study later, well, write notes, if I said it correctly, but I may not be willing to do so...Please, don't take my cheerfulness away.( Always look on the bright side when you're thinking that the bad one must be correct.) The UNknown.
12:56 AM;
I made my mark
Wednesday, September 06, 2006
Here is another me...Sectional practice today, cher suddenly said he wanted to let some of us to play a solo piece. Shock. Some of them play, including me. I played <> since that's the only solo piece I know. I'm not sure whether it is cause' I'm too nervous or cause' I'm simply too lousy...I played until like SHit. My friend played so nice. I was thinking, practise so much but it is just futile. No use huh? No talent means no talent. No point forcing yourself. This made me feel like a failure. Well, I tried, and I still have to continue. But what did I get?? The result is worse than before. I feel I had let myself down. If really is because I'm too nervous, then what the hell I practise so much and get this,...piece of Shit?! The worst part, I didn't really 'feel' the song, and I didn't care about the audiences, I didn't look at them, but I still tremble. Am I abnormal or what?! I expect myself to produce something better, not this! I may have rush a bit, but I think it's okay if you practise more than 1 hour, hey, hallo?! that's the normal time! ( I'm crazy, dun mind me...) Tomorrow, lesson, but I haven't practise yet.Prepared to DIE. well, not really...---The UNknown---
8:46 PM;
I made my mark
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
I skip my practice today...No, it's not school one, neither my teacher one...My OWN one...there's an outing today, then after that go Junction 8 by stuff...Don't feel like practising today, so I didn't...althought there's sectional tomorrow. I want to give myself a break, a one-day break. I think it's okay. She's right, I need to rest in order to walk a longer way. But I'm always slacking during my own practice, haha...haha...I practised quite a lot during the holidays, I guess... Sometimes, 3hours a day, 4 hours a day, or 2 hours a day, well but I slack during the practices.My senior says I break my teacher's heart, cause' I always said his name wrongly...I really sorry, but the name just came out of my mouth...I can't control it...idiot.I'm getting lousier than ever...Whatever...~End of story~The UNknown
11:07 PM;
I made my mark
